Thursday, June 30, 2005

Body Signals

               Angel Therapy Healing Messages for Every Area of Your Life by Doreen Virtue

Review of My Medical Problems:

1. Hypothyroidism
2. Broken bones - face, neck, upper and lower back, hip, ankle
3. Broken jaw - both sides - TMJ
4. Herniated disks (lower back)
5. Heart problems
6. Hiatal hernia
7. Acid reflux
8. Digestive problems
9. Dyslexia
10. Poor circulation
11. Water retention, esp in feet
12. Inflamation of muscles and joints - arthritis
13. Allergies - watery eyes, always congested
14. High blood pressure
15. Migraine headaches
16. Obesity

Obesity does not help my medical problems. Obesity adds to my problems. I pretty much ignore most of my symptoms... much as I ignore "that number" (my age). Sometimes, it helps not to give in to the pain, but sometimes, the pain takes over. If I was healthy, I would have more money and I would not have to take as much sick leave.

If somebody handed me a check for all of the money that I have spent on my medical problems and prescriptions, what would I do with the money?!

1. Put some serious maintenance on my car: washed, waxed, replace the missing hubcaps (stolen), add more freon to air-conditioning, change the oil, tune-up.
2. Find a cute little cottage to live in the Rockport area.
3. Hire someone to help me clean my apartment and to help me pack my things.
4. Rent a U-Haul truck and hire someone to help me move back to Rockport.
5. Get my things out of storage and put them into my new home.
6. Take some art lessons.
7. Buy some art supplies and that beautiful easel I couldnt take my eyes off of at Hobby Lobby.
8. Create an art portfolio of my work.
9. Write a children's book and illustrate it.
10. Buy a good digital camera.
11. Hire a nude male model.
12. Have nude model fall in love with me
13. Fall in love with nude model.
14. Take daily moonlit walks along the ocean with my hunky model.
15. Visit Oprah and give her a hug.
16. Live happily ever after. =.)

It will be good to be healthy again.

Blessed are the flexible for they never bend out of shape.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

The Silver Platter

Nude baby girl (9-12 months) wearing tiara, looking over shoulder photo                         

Changes make me feel incompetent. Changes are always hard, especially when you dont know how to do things or where you are going. Living without direction all of my life, I have had to learn how to do things all by myself. I dont think there is anything wrong in taking out my own compass and making my own roadmap. Depending on someone else has never been an option for me. When I started out on this journey, I was highly motivated, and I was doing well, until he walked into my life. Some people are afraid of being alone. I have been alone all of my life. I am not afraid of being alone. I am afraid of being with someone who does not value my worth.

Today, I started a new journal:

 The Silver Platter

It is a food diary companion to "The Woman in the Glass Box." I plan to write down what I eat on a daily basis. The purpose for The Silver Platter is to become more aware of what I put into my mouth ~ the good, the bad, and the ugly.

When tempted to overeat, I must remember a few of my favorite things...

1. Art
2. Sketching
3. Watercolor
4. Bubble baths
5. Getting a pedicure
6. Sewing
7. Fashion
8. Books/Wisdom
9. Sight-seeing
10. Moonlit walks
11. Decorating
12.Feng Shuy
13. Making jewelry
14. People Watching
15. Sign Language
16. Meditating/Prayer
17. Tai Chi
18. Yoga
19. Free Weights
20. Dancing
21. Listening to Music
22. Jazz
23. The Ocean
24. Taking a nap
25. Spending time with friends/family
26. Journaling

and 27. Oh, I just love finding new places to wear diamonds.


1. I am keeping a small thermos at my desk. I put a straw in it and this has helped me to drink more water. Before I know it, it is time to refill it again. I now find myself reaching for water more often than any other drink.

2. I woke up early enough to do my morning exercises.

Nude baby girl (9-12 months) wearing tiara, looking over shoulder    "I just love finding new places to wear diamonds!"

Lesson Learned: Take time every day in pursuit of the greatest desires of your heart.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005


                                  ~ Josephine Wall: Alternative Reality

OK... so I forgot to take my lunch to work today and today's Menu did not go as planned! Sighhhhhh.... Must put a reminder on my doorknob until it becomes permanently engraved in my mind! Duh!

Good Reasons to Fail


1. Men lose weight faster than women.
2. I have too many health problems.
3. Layering is a fashion statement.
4. Big is beautiful.
5. I dont like counting calories or carbs.
6. I dont want to give up the foods I love.
7. I feel so deprived.
8. My girlfriends are already envious.
9. People with thyroid problems cant lose weight.
10. The more my mother tells me I'm fat, the more I eat.
11. The more stressed I get, the more I eat.
12. I cant do it.
13. Losing weight feels like work.
14. Losing weight is not fun anymore.
15. Losing weight is too hard.
16. I dont have time to exercise.
17. I'd rather watch TV.
18. I'm not flexible like that.
19. Buying the right foods is too expensive.
20. If I lose weight, another loser will show up.
21. I should spend less time journaling and more time exercising.
22. It's safer to stay in the Glass Box.


* * * * * * * * * * * * * * ** * * * *

Good Reasons to Keep Trying

1. Women are stronger than men in so many ways.
2. I have proved the doctors wrong more times than I can remember.
3. A small waist is sexy and beautiful and never goes out of style.
4. Size really does matter.
5. Counting is irrelevant but selecting healthy foods does my body good.
6. True pleasure includes all five senses.
7. All foods can be enjoyed if the portions are right.
8. True friends are forever, through thick or thin.
9. I have proved to myself that I can lose weight in spite of a thyroid problem.
10. Some people can only lift themselves up by putting other people down.
11. There are only 24 hours in a day. It's ok to take time for myself.
12. I have lost weight many times before and I can do it again..
13. To work 7days/week would make me weak; to diet 7days/week will make me weak.
14. Losing weight must include rewards and times of rest.
15. All miracles start out as something that we see as impossible.
16. Waking up 15 minutes earlier gives me time to start my day with exercise and then I'm done!
17. My moonlit walks always made me feel closer to God.
18. Stretching will give me the sleek lines of a dancer.
19. Eating the wrong foods makes it more expensive to lose weight.
20. I can attract men no matter what my weight, but if I lose weight, I can be more selective.
21. I will not journal faster than my guardian angel can fly.
22. Breaking out of the Glass Box will change my life forever and that is a good thing.

  Love ~ It's ok to love myself!

 Hug ~ Note: Deaf people hug more than Hearing people. The world would be a better place if there were more hugs in the world. I cant even remember when I got my last hug. I think Iwill hug myself today. =.)

Start the Day Right


 Balance Pose         * Shoulder Stand Pose *       Pyramid Pose

Started the day right with a glass of water upon rising.

Also, found this article in Woman's World magazine: Cure a sluggish thyroid ~ with Yoga! The pictures of the poses above look more advanced than the pictures in the magazine, but they appear to be about the closest.

For balanced pose, hold on to the back of a chair for support. Hold for 30 seconds. Repeat twice on each leg.

For shoulder stand, dont lift torso as high and support hips with arms and hands. Hold pose for 35 seconds. Repeat.

For pyramid pose, hold for five seconds, inhale,and return to start position. Repeat once on each leg.

Seems ironic that the radio woke me up to G-L-O-R-I-A yesterday morning. The crabby old lady is back at work, and Magda came back to work, too. I continue to be very stressed. The scale continues to keep going up and down. Need to stop procrastinating.

Today, I woke up  15 minutes earlier, I drank water upon rising, and I have already started out the day with exercise.



          Rising: glass water
          B: oatmeal, 3-4almonds, glass of milk
          S: 1/2 apple
          L: chicken breast, mixed veggies, salad
          S: 1/2 apple
          D: Tuna and salad
          S: ?


One night a man had a dream. He dreamed
he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:

"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."



Sunday, June 26, 2005

Looking UP my own skirt


Not everyone is born with a perfect body and not everyone is born with a pretty face. For most of us, beauty is not something that comes naturally. For most of us, beauty is learned. Some of us have someone to teach us; some of us dont.

Se dice de mi...
Se dice que soy fea,
que camino a lo malevo,
que soy chueca y que me muevo
con un aire compadrón.
Que parezco un dinosaurio,
mi nariz es puntiaguda,
la figura no me ayuda,
y mi boca es un buzón.

Si charlo con Luis, con Pedro o con Juan,
hablando de mi los hombres están,
critican si ya la línea perdí,
se fijan si voy, si vengo o si fui.

Se dicen muchas cosas,
mas si el bulto no interesa
Por qué pierden la cabeza ocupándose de mi?

Yo sé que muchos que desprecian con mentiras,
y suspiran y se mueren cuando piensan en mi amor
Y más de alguno se derrite si suspiro,
y se queda si lo miro, resoplándo con temor.
Si fea soy, pongámosle,
que de eso ya, yo me enteré.
Mas la fealdad que Dios me dió,
mucha mujer me la envidió,
y no dirán que me creí,
porque modesta siempre fui
yo soy asi

Y ocultan de mi
ocultan que yo tengo unos ojos soñadores
y ademas otros timones que producen sensacion
si soy fea se que en cambio tengo un cutis de muñeca
los que dicen que soy chueca no me han visto en camison
los hombres de mi critican la voz,
el modo de andar la punta la tos
critican si ya la linea perdi se fijan si voy si vengo o si fui

Se dicen muchas cosas,
mas si el bulto no interesa
Por qué pierden la cabeza ocupándose de mi?

Yo sé que muchos que desprecian con mentiras,
y suspiran y se mueren cuando piensan en mi amor
Y más de alguno se derrite si suspiro,
y se queda si lo miro, resoplándo con temor.
Si fea soy, pongámosle,
que de eso ya, yo me enteré.
Mas la fealdad que Dios me dió,
mucha mujer me la envidió,
y no dirán que me creí,
porque modesta siempre fui
yo soy asi.

              ~ Yolanda Rayo: Se Dice De Mi

Underneath my  clothes, I am the same Win, but looking up my own skirt, I have come face-to-face with a different Win, a Win that I fail to recognize. 

This Win rebels against her need to change. This Win wants to give up. My life is asking me to make a change and I am afraid of change, and so, I keep on being the same... but being the same is not the same person that I used to be...

I am still the brilliant, hard-working career woman that I always was, but coming to the Valley has drastically changed my personal life, and my greatest insecurities are as a result of looking at myself in the mirror. I am fat, because I am unhappy. I am unhappy, because I am in the Valley. The more I think about the Valley, the more I realize that this is not my world and it makes me very sad.

Feeling melancholy is ok, because that means that I miss something or someone that I like... but it is not good to keep the sadness within my heart. The body is a temple, and it receives everything ~ good and bad. I cannot allow the negativity of the people I come in contact with or my own words and thoughts to cut through my life like a knife. To do so is to destroy myself. I know I must liberate myself from all these bad things, but my heart feels so heavy. It feels as if I am on this journey all by myself. I feel so overworked. I feel so burned out. I want so much to escape.


"He kissed me and it made me feel as if I had had surgery."

Most women are not happy without a man by their side, but most men do not meet my expectations. I do not know if I will ever meet a man who can take my breath away with his kiss. I have lived without love all of my life, and I have cometo realize that sometimes, having one person to love you might not be in your destiny. Sometimes, you have far greater things to do with your life. Sometimes, you belong to the world, instead.

I do not know how long I stood there, gazing up... the memories rolling in my mind,  gently unfolding like the pictures in the photo album of my life... and then, my eyes began to water. It was just like the one in the picture... I wanted so much to buy it, but it was so big, how would I ever carry it up the stairs?! ...

... I am closer to the last pages of my life. My childhood dreams are almost faded now. How can I recapture something that I have failed to start?!#

I miss the Win I used to be... the Win who was sure of herself, professionally and socially.

Beauty is not only about having a beautiful body. Beauty is also about elegance, grace, etiquette, how you handle yourself among others, and the confidence you have in yourself.


Monday, June 20, 2005

Disappearing Act?!


Thursdays are Worker Profile day. That means that I do the orientation presentations for the people who are on unemployment on that day. I warned my coworker ahead of time and he saw me making copies and preparing the orientation room. BUT last Thursday, he failed to call-in to inform my boss that he was not coming in on that day. As a result, we were short staffed and my boss had to serve everyone that came through the door that were not scheduled for orientation.

Today, that same coworker did not come in to work, and again, he failed to call-in to inform my boss that he wasnt going to come in. Last Friday, he left at 3pm. I think he is looking for another job. He is still on probation. Today, my boss told me that he is going to fire him. I am surprised that he didnt fire him last week, but I suppose that he gave him a break because we are short staffed.

Magda is still out on sick leave. She was going to Houston for a reevaluation and might need surgery in her ears. Gloria had surgery on her knee last month and she will be out another month.

Today, I helped about three pages of clients all by myself. My boss was surprised that I can pretty much do the work all by myself, as long as there is someone handling reception. The receptionist was also out today, so my boss had to cover the front desk.  

Because of my work schedule, the diet I was on was too complicated for me to follow, mostly because I just dont have the time to take any breaks. The only break I get is during my lunch hour, so I am not able to keep up with eating this or that on a schedule if it is something that I have to go get in the fridge. Some days, I dont even get to drink a cup of coffee. Therefore, I have decided to return to my original diet. It will be hard, but I plan to drive it hard for a week to see where it leads me...... After that, I will re-evaluate.

P.S. Today, I was shocked to hear a client tell me that he thought I was about 20 years old. 

Today, a client couldnt take his eyes off of me. He told me that he was going to give me the evil eye, because I have beautiful hair.

Today, a client, who is younger than I am, mistook me for anglo and she was shocked that the picture of my grandbaby is not the picture of my baby.

Today, my boss said that a client asked him if I know more than him My boss told me that he told him that I do know more than him.

 Compliments are like magic for your self-esteem. ~ Win =.)

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Beauty and the Beast


              photograph of Jane Seymour as Elise McKenna in Somewhere In Time

Our ancestors had tiny waistlines, because it took so much time to get food, and it was just as hard to store it and to keep it fresh.

In today's world, it is so easy to pick up food through a "drive- thru" window, which is somewhat like a "drive-by" shooting for my body. And in today's supermarkets... well, let's just say that the plentitude found in each and every aisle would most definitely outshine the magic and imagination of any Genie found in a bottle or in a magic lamp.

I have the power to choose what I put into my mouth and what I eat should not be limited to oral gratification. Eating without thinking is not a good thing. What I put into my mouth should be a conscious effort that focuses on good nutrition to nourish my body. Eating the right things can provide my body with the power to magically heal itself... and if that food helps to enhance my beauty, that is like an extra reward for myself, for my body, for my very soul.

  CLEAR SKIN... Calcium-rich foods like skim milk, low-fat cheese, and yogurt can help keep your skin pimple-free.   

  WHITEN YOUR TEETH... sodas, coffee, tea and sugary foods can stain and discolor teeth.  But crunchy foods like apples and celery help clear stain-causing substances off teeth enamel.

 ELIMINATE UNDEREYE PUFFINESS...  Vitamin C reduces inflammation and can help send your bags packin'.   Bell peppers are great for this since they're super-high in the vitamin.  Oranges, spinach and grapefruits are also rich in vitamin C.

   STRENTHEN NAILS...  Keep nails strong and moisturized by eating lots of protein.  Protein is what builds up keratin; the substance nails are made up of.  Skinless boneless chicken breast, lean turkey, tuna and beans are all good (and tasty) sources.  

LOOK YOUNGER... Almonds have amazing anti-aging properties.  Not only do they contain a lot of Vitamin E (you know, the vitamin that's often listed as an ingredient in anti-wrinkle creams), but it also contains high amounts of fatty acids (which help keep skin plump and supple), as well as the antioxidant selenium.  Just be sure not to eat too many of these crunchy beasts. They have great beautifying properties, but they also contain a whole lotta calories.  A handful is plenty!

   SHINY HAIR...    Foods rich in vitamin B are fantastic for making dull hair shinier.  You can get a lot of "The B" (our affectionate nickname for this vitamin) from eggs, milk, green veggies, and poultry.  Silica is also very important for keeping hair elastic, shiny and healthy.  Raw oats, cucumber skin, onions and bean sprouts are all major sources of this mineral.

  ELIMINATE DRY SKIN... Faced with dry, flaky skin?  Have fish for dinner!  Fish (especially oily fish like salmon) contains Omega-3 fatty acids, which are great for hydrating and nourishing skin.

When I was a little girl, no one ever told me I was pretty. Every little girl should be told she is pretty, even if she's not. ~ Marilyn Monroe


I havent been able to keep up with writing in my journal every day. My job has become so exhausting. Being short-staffed has made it so hard to keep up with the multitude of people that walk through our doors every day. The stress causes me to eat more than I should sometimes, and other times, I just want to eat all the wrong foods. Fortunately, I am slowly making a more conscious effort to eat a light supper and to make better choices about what I eat.

The foods listed above are foods that I usually eat, but this research has earned them a permanent place on my grocery list and a permanent part of my weekly menu.

Thanks for stopping by!

Win =.)

Wednesday, June 15, 2005


Remember the hateful woman who came in a few weeks ago! She verbally attacked me with all of her best shots. She didnt think I was old enough to have children, but when I told her that my children were grown, that's when she asked me if I was 50 or 60 and told me that I looked it. Boy, does that hurt the old self-esteem-o... But

Some people just seem to feel better when they make you feel bad! The bad stuff is always so much easier to believe.

Well, yesterday, a 23-year old male came in looking for a job. He admired the picture on my shelf and asked if it was my daughter. He seemed shocked when I told him that she was my grandaughter. He said: I thought you were about 28!

It's funny how a man who gives you a compliment suddenly becomes more attractive than he really is.

When it comes to men, I seem to attract more Flabio's than Fabio's. This young man might not have looked like Fabio, but he was good looking enough to make my day. =.)

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

A Second Chance

I do not have cable TV, but you have to live in your own little world if you have heard nothing about the Michael Jackson verdict.

Like the jurors, I questioned the family's credibility from the start. What mother in her right mind would allow her child to sleep over with an adult? Any adult~ famous or not famous! Ahhh, THAT is the question! What was she thinking? Michael was wrong to allow the sleepovers, but a real mother would think twice about where she leaves her children ~ cancer or no cancer.

scream.gif (38606 bytes)Michael clearly has a lot of issues, and most of those issues are a result of not having a real childhood or supportive parents. I was most surprised to see them in and out of the courtroom with Michael, even La Toya. What was that?! Was she there for actual support or was she there for herself? Where was Janet?

This verdict has provided Michael with the opportunity at a second chance at life. How many of us do not get a second chance at life?! BUT will this be enough to make a real change in his life?

To lose money is one thing, but to lose honor is everything!

If you were Michael, what would you do? Will the verdict be enough to continue his status as the King of Pop? Will he make a come back or will he go into deep seclusion?!#

Monday, June 13, 2005

Body Beautiful


For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. For beautiful hair, let a child run his fingers through it once a day. For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone...

- Katherine Hepburn part one : as if She Had Always Lived in a Garden... Audrey Hepburn...

Friday, June 10, 2005

My Day Off


                            THE SISTERHOOD OF THE TRAVELING PANTS

Because I have to work Saturday, I had to take a day off. I went to see the Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. I am glad that I went alone, because I would have been embarrassed if someone had watched me cry. I would say there is a little bit of all five of the girls in me, but the ones I identified with the most were Lena (the artist) and Bailey. I do not want to give away too much about the movie, except that it is a chick flick, and I do recommend for you to go watch it. I was surprised to see that there are books about this movie out already, but I will wait to get it on DVD.

My daughter Angel wants to try for an art teacher position, so I had to make copies of the paintings she has made for me. I got them made on CD at Wal-Mart. They didnt turn out too well on that cheap little disposable camera, but hopefully, it is what she needs. While I was there, I found the Karate Kid on DVD. I have a huge library of VHS, but I want to get rid of most of them because they take up too much space, eventually, and repeat the ones I love on DVD.

There isnt a Half-Price books in this area, so I went to Barnes and Noble, looked at books, and had a mint cappacino. I love books. If I could, I would have a study loft full of books and a sliding library ladder...

The diet hasnt been going very well. I get so hungry and have been cheating everyday. Yesterday, I was so hungry that I really really blew it. I dont know how I managed to lose some weight this week, because I have really been pigging out during supper every single day since I have been on this diet. I had the wheat ham and cheese sandwich with that cappicino at Barnes and Noble yesterday. It was huge, but it was so expensive that I ate the whole thing~ with breaks in between, while I explored which books I wanted to buy, of course. I felt so stuffed! I will have to make modifications today, so I'm not so hungry. By the way, I dont recommend that sandwich at Barnes and Noble. It really wasnt very good and it didnt have any vegetables in it, either. The cappicino would have been enough.

You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don’t try. - Beverly Sills

Thursday, June 9, 2005

Healing Journey


Close your eyes, take a few deep breaths, and begin to relax... Let the breath carry you away to another place, another time, before the beginning of time…

You are standing at the edge of a shore looking over towards an island. It is nightfall, and above you a full moon is rising. All is so still in the dim purple air, and the sounds of the evening seem magnified …a night owl softly hooting from a neighboring wood …the liquid sound of the water lapping at your feet …... Moths flutter white in the purple twilight, and as you look over the water towards the island you see it is half-hidden by a mist, and the moon is shining through this mist creating a filmy veil of white around it…translucent, opalescent light that seems to come from another world…and now out of the swirling mist, comes something moving towards you… it is a small boat and it is gliding swiftly but smoothly to the shore, and yet there is no-one aboard. It seems steered by some magic will of its own.

You gaze in fascination as the boat approaches the very place where you stand at the shoreline edge, and you know, as it comes to rest, bobbing gently on the water, that it has come for you. You step lightly into the boat and sit in the center of the wooden bench, feeling it rock a little, and then it steadies, turns and glides away from the shore, carrying you smoothly into the misty regions of the island.

At first the night breeze lifts your hair, but as you enter the mist, a cold dew surrounds you and you can no longer see. You must trust that the little boat knows where it is taking you, trust the passage into the unknown…and now the mist begins to lift a little and then rolls back fully like a curtain, to unveil the shore of the island under the full moon. A woman is standing there waiting for the boat to bring you to land…She is tall and straight, dressed in dark blue robes, and the little boat takes you to where she waits.

As you approach the woman, she is silent and does not move. Her face is half-veiled but you can see kind, wise eyes beneath the veil, and she extends her hand in welcome. Then without a word she motions you to follow her. She leads you though orchards of apple-trees that bear ripe fruit and blossoms at the same time, all silvered by the moon. As you reach the center of the island, you see a low stone building, the temple at the heart of the island.

She leads you through a small doorway hung with a curtain made of tiny crystal beads…inside, a dim amber light reveals bunches of herbs and flowers hung up to dry on wooden beams. The lady ushers you to a long low pallet made of straw and heather and you lie down upon it. Beside it is a small copper brazier in which is burning a gold and blue flame…Although she does not appear to speak, you sense she is asking you to let her know where in your body, mind or spirit you need most to heal. And you ponder this for a few moments … and let her know. 

She picks up a large shallow wicker basket and takes from it certain things: sprigs of herbs, roots, glittering stones …maybe some other things…and she lays them on your body where they most need to go, maybe where you have told her there is a problem, maybe other places besides …notice where she places them. …The scent of the herbs…the warm glow of the flame …are very soothing after the cold boat ride, and you feel yourself drowsily drifting into a half-sleep state, while the lady takes a stringed instrument and begins to play…every now and then stopping to throw a handful of powdered herbs onto the fire, which sparkle for a few moments and fill the air with a sweet heavy fragrance …and the herbs lull you into a dreamy state, and you half-wonder if you hear the Lady singing …and time no longer exists…and you drift away feeling very sweet and peaceful…

And after what may have been a short time or a long time or no time at all, you surface into wakefulness, spiraling up slowly as if through water. The eyes of the lady are smiling down at you, and she bids you rise. The fire is low and a little breeze is now entering in through the low door making the curtain stir. She leads you outside, and you are aware of feeling lighter, better than before, as if there has been a shift within the matrix of your being … a healing has taken place…the first rays of the sun are gilding the apple-trees, turning the apples to pure gold… She takes you back to the edge of the shore where the little boat is still waiting for you. You thank the lady with all your heart and bid her a fond farewell …then you get into the boat, and when you have found your balance on the seat, it begins to glide away.

As it turns away from the island, you look back and wave, but she is no longer there, and then the mist is all about you and you can see no more until you emerge on the other side…and now you are gliding along the golden path of the morning sun on the water and after a while, you find yourself deposited at the edge of the mainland once again. You step out and the little boat glides away once more back to the island. You take several deep breaths, and with each breath you take, become a little more aware that your body is lying on these cushions, in this room, in this time and place. You surface up to waking consciousness and open your eyes, feeling wide-awake.

     Allow your body to HEAL, Win! Take up the Sword of Power of Your Own Life and RESTORE the remains of your Kingdom, for only YOU can be the Heroine of Your Own Story.

Wednesday, June 8, 2005

The Doors


There is always one moment in childhood when the door opens and lets the future in. Deepak Chopra

The will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential... these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence. Confucius

I never go out unless I look like Joan Crawford the movie star. If you want to see the girl next door, go next door. Joan Crawford

When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us. Helen Keller

Someone knocks at the door of an apartment to borrow salt or sugar, people run into each other in the elevator, and in this way become inscribed in the spectator's memory. Krzysztof Kieslowski

All day long the door of the sub-conscious remains just ajar; we slip through to the other side, and return again, as easily and secretly as a cat. Walter de La Mare

There was a door to which I found no key: There was the veil through which I might not see. Omar Khayyam

It is a puzzling thing. The truth knocks on the door and you say, "Go away, I'm looking for the truth," and so it goes away. Puzzling. Robert M. Pirsig

Obsessed by a fairy tale, we spend our lives searching for a magic door and a lost kingdom of peace. Eugene O'Neill

In oneself lies the whole world and if you know how to look and learn, the door is there and the key is in your hand. Nobody on earth can give you either the key or the door to open, except yourself. Jiddu Krishnamurti

Happiness is like manna; it is to be gathered in grains, and enjoyed every day. It will not keep; it cannot be accumulated; nor have we got to go out of ourselves or into remote places to gather it, since it has rained down from a Heaven, at our very door. Tryon Edwards

Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open. John Barrymore

If opportunity doesn't knock, build a door. Milton Berle

If all the world's a stage, I want to operatethe trap door. Paul Beatty

I have six locks on my door all in a row. When I go out, I lock every other one. I figure no matter how long somebody stands there picking the locks, they are always locking three. Elayne Boosler

You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space. Johnny Cash

Don't spend time beating on a wall, hoping to transform it into a door. Coco Chanel

You can do anything you think you can. This knowledge is literally the gift of the gods, for through it you can solve every human problem. It should make of you an incurable optimist. It is the open door. Robert Collier

Ask and it shall be given to you, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you. Luke11:9


Tuesday, June 7, 2005



What an exhausting day! I wasnt able to go to lunch until about 2:00 p.m.  I helped sooo many people today. No wonder I am exhausted....

Perhaps someday some one will come into my life to help me... and if that someone is the man of my dreams, it wouldnt hurt for him to be heroic, intelligent, faithful, and buff.  =.)