Saturday, March 31, 2007



Welcome, Sweet Spring!

As usual, the birds are singing outside my window. There have been so many birds lately, that it almost seems like a remake of Alfred Hitchcock's movie.

I noticed the bougainvilleas the other day when I was driving home from work. They were not there last year. Someone must have taken the time to plant them with their loving hands. There they were, lined up one after another, a beautiful row of purple for what seemed would go on forever. And there was another place where you could smell the sweet scent of jazmine flowers.

I wonder if the people who do not have to work take these beautiful gifts of nature for granted... 

Sometimes, the moon greets me in the morning. Sometimes, the most beautiful part of my day is driving home past all of these beautiful flowers...

Nature is so beautiful. I think it is God's way of telling us that there will be brighter days ahead. I think it is God's way of telling us that just like the birds and the lilies of the field, He is watching over us and taking care of us.

  Anyways, here it is Saturday and I am on my way back to work. There is hardly enough time to make a dent in my work, but I must make use of whatever time the Lord allows me to have.   

Make today a great day!


Thursday, March 29, 2007

Take Courage to Look Fear in the Face

Oh, what a week I've had! And today held it's challenges as well. My sweet guardian angel, where are you?!  

Thank God that I was able to meet my numbers.

I have 102 kids in my program when I only needed 100. It has been so hard to get them, because about 99% of the kids are kids that I have gotten on my own, without recommendations from any teachers or staff.  My coworkers do not have the challenges that I have because they have the same kids over and over again, only having to add six graders as the eighth graders leave or ninth graders as the seniors leave. Here I am at a new school where most of the kids do not know about this program, and yet, I have made the numbers! I am very proud of myself for that. I just hope that I can come up with some new ideas to keep them interested until the end of the year. Too bad the tango lessons didn't work out... That would have been the icing on the cake to finalize this school year... Maybe next year?

I was able to get most of the parents surveyed except for one, even though I had to make home visits to almost all of them to find them and get the paperwork completed. I lost about two days this week trying to do that. One parent I couldn't find, but hey, I wasn't even supposed to have done them... the parental involvement person was supposed to have done them. My boss said he was going to notify the man who wanted these surveys that his staff put me to do it instead of doing it themselves.

I have had to reset all the passwords for my kids, because they were not able to get into the school Internet and/or were not even in the system! The school staff was supposed to have been done that at the beginning of the school year. It is too bad that here it is almost the end of the school year and there were at least 98% errors. Having to reset all the passwords set me back several days from completing the student evaluations.

<FONTSIZE=4>Also, because the kids have been testing in the labs for the past three days, I have not been able to do the surveys in multitude. I suppose God had his hand in on that one, because I had to bring in the kids one by one and have them do the survey on my computer. Well, at least I know that only one student gave me a bad evaluation. That was the kid who locked my filing cabinet earlier this year that kept me from getting to my paperwork; remember?! Well, he is the main student who really liked the woman who was here before me. I think she probably let him get away with a lot. From what I hear, she didn't have any order and the kids would go to her only to hang out and skip classes.

My bad kids are suspended. My boss told me not to worry about getting their surveys done, which may be a blessing! Perhaps it will give me some time to get them to straighten out, maybe not. I wish I had asked the boy in the beginning if he really wanted to be in this program, because it seems that every time I go look for him, he is always in trouble... and the girl, well, she was court-ordered to be in my program. She is into drugs and a gang and she is being raised by her 18 year old sister because her mom is in jail for drugs. If it had been up to me, I would not have had her in the program, because she really does not want to straighten up. She is an 8th grader who misses a lot of school. She was recently suspended because she beat up a 6th grader. Being suspended is not any kind of real punishment. It's a way for her to be out and do drugs and all the bad things she wants to do. I wish administration would see that suspension does not work. They should put her to do community service instead.

I was very surprised in the change of one of my most depressed students. His father died on his birthday. He had a light in his eyes today that I had never seen before. Our relationship seems to be much better. He trusts me and he looks for me. That is a good sign that he is finally getting over his depression. I love to see my kids smiling and happy.

Today, I had to try to get the staff to evaluate me in a survey. Oh, that is so scary, to put your head right under the guillotine. Cut off my head, why don't you?!#

  The evaluations were only supposed to have been done by administration staff and the staff who recommended kids into my program. Unfortunately, the principal emailed the whole school to do it. Ouch!!!! That's like cutting off my head and mutilating my entire body in small bite sized pieces!!!!!!  

One of the teachers told me that she overheard someone from administration saying negative things about me and that I am not very professional. I don't think it was very professional for them to say that or to try to convince the others to say bad things about me in the evaluation.

A lot rests on this evaluation. It could cost me my job. It hurts to know that so many people will be evaluating me, even if they do not know me and/or have not helped me in my job. How would they feel if the whole school had to evaluate them?! 

Looking for work is such a pain. I hope the staff won't judge me harshly. I would hate to have to be forced to look for another job again... I have done a lot of good at this job. I hope enough people will be able to recognize that so as to balance out the people with black hearts.

God, help me get through this. Guardian Angel, stay close. Help me to continue to do my best at my job.

God, please help me to feel that I am not alone... But if I am alone, help me to remain standing with my head held high.


Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Climb Every Mountain


I am feeling guilty about not being able to touch my data entry this week. It has been hard enough trying to meet the deadlines for the other three projects which are due this Friday. I have been juggling all of them at once and not one of them is completed, but I have been making good progress.
I was surprised to hear my boss compliment me for what I have done so far. I guess he has been paying close attention to the reports as they come in. He said that I made him look good.

BUT... he added that I also need to complete Project No. 5, which, by the way, is also due on Friday. So now I have one more project that I need to work on tomorrow, in addition to the other three projects... and my paperwork continues to be put on hold...
There was also an email about some nominations or something... with no attachments, so I have no idea what it is, but I am not touching that one. I already have enough to worry about this week.
To add to my woes, I had a bad experience at the hairdresser last Saturday. Magdalena was busy taking care of three customers at once. I was sitting at the rinse sink, waiting for her coworker to add my toner. She asked her coworker to mix my color, but the coworker was in the closet when Magdalena told her what colors to mix. I don't think the coworker heard what my hairdresser was saying, because it looks like she mixed the wrong color. It is so hard to feel good about yourself when you do not like the way the hairdresser left your hair!!!! I will try to fix it myself... project six?! Yikes... 
God, help me to get through this week. Hopefully, next week, all this will be behind me and I can focus on getting back to doing groups and focusing on my paperwork.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Buried In Work

     I find myself buried deep within The Glass Box, stressed out from all the work that I have yet to do...
     Yesterday, the parental involvement person left the parent surveys in my box for me to do them and return them to her by today. I was out all day yesterday until about 6:30 in the evening, trying to complete them. I couldn't find one of the parents because the address and the phone numbers are incorrect. The man who lived there said he has been there for at least two years. (The student gave me that address in September.) When I spoke to the student today, it was clear that she doesn't want me to know where she lives. She did not have the right phone number and she couldn't or wouldn't even draw me a map so I could find her mother so that she could complete the forms. To top it off, my boss scolded me for about 20 minutes, because the parental involvement person was supposed to have done them herself.
      Not my fault! Hello!!! I didn't have that kind of time to waste on a scolding...
     So then, my boss was upset because I haven't been able to do the student surveys. Many of the students were not even in the system. (Again~ not my fault!! Working on it!!!) Unfortunately, they are due by Friday, and Friday, I have a meeting. Many of the kids were testing today and more will be testing tomorrow. That's another obstacle. Still, I have completed 17 surveys already. I think there are about 35 more to go. I think I will be able to meet the deadline... if the kids can get into the site.
     Third project due this week: my numbers. I need to have 100 students by Friday. That means I needed to get about 30 new students in the program this month. I need about six more to get there~ and one, I cannot enter into the computer because I accidentally typed her SSN under a different student. The error was reported in January, but Austin has not corrected the error and I really doubt if they will.
      Project four is my data entry. I have been too busy trying to complete these three projects, that I haven't even touched it... That means I will need to go in on Saturday to see if I can catch up a little. Why do they wait til the last minute and then expect us to do everything at once?!!@# Oh, well... that is LIFE...
     With all this stress and deadlines to meet, trying to diet is like trying to commit suicide. It ain't gonna happen, my friend. Might as well forget about it! BUT... I figured that I can at least try to add exercise to my day a few days a week... and so, I did. Last week, I started doing waist exercises for a few minutes before I headed out to work. That's it, just a few waist exercises. Little steps... 
     Last week, my waist measured at 41.5 inches. My goodness! That is almost as wide as I am tall. The truth hurts...  Yesterday, I was surprised that my waist measured at 38 inches.  If I can lose at least two inches on my waistline per week, I will be at a good place by my birthday, but even if I only lose one inch per week, it would make me happy...
     Will I be able to get through these deadlines at work AND continue doing my exercises in the morning? Will I be able to lose at least eight more inches from my waistline?! Even if I do not lose weight, it would be nice to have a smaller waistline.
(Marilyn Monroe posing as Betty Page.)

Sunday, March 25, 2007


Welcome to:
Winning With Win
Today's Helpful Hints:
Health and Beauty with Coca-Cola
Tan Lotion: Apply plain Coca-Cola to the skin and sit out in the sun or on a tanning bed. Note: do not use diet coke, cherry coke or generic.
Beautiful Separated Curls: Pour a can of flat Coca-Cola onto long hair and leave it in for a few minutes. Rinse.
Too dark hair dye job: Pour a bottle of Diet Coca-Cola through your hair to lighten or fade hair that has been dyed too dark. Do not use regular Coca-Cola.
Silky Legs: Mix regular Coca-Cola with unscented lotion. Apply mixture to your legs.
Common Cold: To a saucepan, the contents of one can of Coca-Cola and some fresh ginger. Let it come to a boil and then cook on a low heat for a few minutes. Drink while warm.
Congestion:  Drink a glass of HOT Coca-Cola before going to bed.
Nauseated? Open a can of Coca-Cola and let it stand until the carbonation goes away.  Take a teaspoon every hour.
Constipation:  In the blender, mix  1-3 tablespoons of caster oil or mineral oil with a cup of Coca-Cola. (Tastes like cream soda!) This remedy is for occasional use only. Do not use if you are pregnant without consulting your doctor!
Selena Quintanilla Perez, remembered.
Spokesperson for Coca-Cola
Lead Singer of Selena y Los Dinos
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Thursday, March 22, 2007

Take Heart, Take Wing...


     March 20 through 23 marks a moment of perfect balance between night and day, but after this, the days will be longer than the nights. During this season, we celebrate the resurrection of the earth and the fragility and courage of new life.
     This is a season of new beginnings, and it is rightfully associated with the egg, because the egg has long been revered as a source of life.
Crowned with sweet tulips, with snowdrops and lilies,
She gathers the nests in her arms.
She broods over eggs, she shelters small creatures.
The shape of her body burns bright in the grass.
All around you, the smallest ones hatch.
Then they fly and they sing.
Take heart, take heart and take wing.
... It takes great courage and energy to let go of stuck patterns, and break out of the egg (The Glass Box). To do so is to be free, to have the courage to embrace the new life that awaits outside of The Glass Box. It sounds so natural, so beautiful, but The Glass Box has provided me with so much comfort, that the thought of breaking out of the box is frightening...
     Life has allowed me the priviledge of knowing what it is like to be a woman who can stand on her own two feet. My life lessons have been difficult, but they have made me stronger, and allowed me to experience the sweet taste of victory. It has been wonderful to be triumphant, but my victory has always been to stand alone, and I like being alone...
     ... I do not know if I am willing to expose my heart to the tragedy of my vulnerability. I want to stay strong. I do not want to allow someone to shatter the heart I have worked so hard to mend... 
     ... And yet, from time to time... if you watch closely... you will catch me trying to catch a glimpse of the view outside The Glass Box... wondering when it will be safe to break the glass once more...

Saturday, March 17, 2007

St Patrick Activities


St Patrick's Day Trivia
1. Where was St Patrick born?
Wales, Ireland, England, France
2. Which city's St Patrick's Day parade garners the most viewers?
Dublin, Belfast, New York, Boston
3. At the age of 16, St Patrick considered himself __________?
Pagan, Scholar, Prophet, Misunderstood
4. How many Americans have Irish ancestry?
4 million, 12 million, 20 million, 34 million
5. Which myth is NOT associated with St Patrick?
He drove the snakes from Ireland.
His jawbone was preserved in silver.
He converted Druid warrior chiefs.
He brewed a version of Guinness beer.
6. Which pope canonized St Patrick? 
Innocent I, Pius III, John Paul II, St Patrick has not been canonized.
7. Which organization began the group St Patrick's Festival?
The Roman Catholic Church, The Irish Government, Sinn Fein, Gaelic Athletic Association
8. According to world records, what is the most number of leaves found on a shamrock?
4, 5, 11, 14
9. Leprechauns are said to perform which service for fairies?
Make their shoes, Keep their gardens, Guard their gold, Nothing.
10. Which brand of drink is NOT Irish, and thus not fit for consumption on St Paddy's Day?
Smithwick's Ale, Jameson's Whiskey, Bulmer's (aka Magner's) Cider, Glendiffich.
Lucky Study
Professor Richard Wiseman conducted an experiment to find out why some people are consistently lucky whereas others are not. He identifies certain characteristics of lucky people and provides the following 4 point plan to increase your own luck:
Listen to your gut instincts - they are normally right

Be open to new experiences and breaking your normal routine

Spend a few moments each day remembering things that went well

Visualize yourself being lucky before an important meeting or telephone call. Luckis very often a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Irish Coffee Recipe
1 shot Irish whiskey
1T sugar
6oz coffee
whipped cream for garnish
Pre-warm a stemmed glass. Add the whiskey. Add the sugar. Stir in the coffee. Float the whipped cream on top.  Do not stir after adding the cream. Drink the coffee through the cream.

df_2-1.jpg  Answers to Quiz

1:Wales 2:New York 3:Pagan 4:34 million 5:He brewed a version of Guiness. 6:St Patrick has not been canonized. 7:Irish government. 8:14 9:Make their shoes. 10:Glenfiddich

Pot of Gold



Friday, March 16, 2007

Win's J-Land Links




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Shhh... The Secret

Quotes from "The Secret”

1. We all work with one infinite power
2. The Secret is the Law of Attraction (LOA)
3. Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting
4. We are like magnets - like attract like. You become and attract what you think
5. Every thought has a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy
6. People think about what they don't want and attract more of the same
7. Thought = creation. If these thoughts are attached to powerful emotions (good or bad) that speeds the creation
8. You attract your dominant thoughts
9. Those who speak most of illness have illness, those who speak most of prosperity have it..etc..
10. It’s not “wishful” thinking.
11. You can't have a universe without the mind entering into it
12. Choose your thoughts carefully .. you are a masterpiece of your life
13. It’s OK that thoughts don't manifest into reality immediately (if we saw a picture of an elephant and it instantly appeared, that would be too soon)
14. EVERYTHING in your life you have attracted .. accept that fact it’s true.
15. Your thoughts cause your feelings
16. We don't need to complicate all the “reasons” behind our emotions. It’s much simpler than that. Two categories .. good feelings, bad feelings.
17. Thoughts that bring about good feelings mean you are on the right track. thoughts that bring about bad feelings means you are not on the right track.
18. Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming
19. You get exactly what you are FEELING
20. Happy feelings will attract more happy circumstances
21. You can begin feeling whatever you want (even if it’s not there).. the universe will correspond to the nature of your song
22. What you focus on with your thought and feeling is what you attract into your experience
23. What you think and what you feel and what actually manifests is ALWAYS a match - no exception
24. Shift your awareness
25. “You create your own universe as you go along” Winston Churchill
26. It’s important to feel good ( ( ( (((good))) ) ) )
27. You can change your emotion immediately by thinking of something joyful, or singing a song, or remembering a happy experience
28. When you get the hang of this, before you know it you will KNOW you are the creator
29. Life can and should be phenomenal .. and it will be when you consciously apply the Law of Attraction
30. Universe will re-arrange itself accordingly
31. Start by using this sentence for all of your wants: “I'm so happy and grateful now that…. ”
32. You don't need to know HOW the universe is going to rearrange itself
33. LOA is simply figuring out for yourself what will generate the positive feelings of having it NOW
34. You might get an inspired thought or idea to help you move towards what you want faster
35. The universe likes SPEED. Don't delay, don't second-guess, don't doubt..
36. When the opportunity or impulse is there .. ACT
37. You will attract everything you require - money, people, connections.. PAY ATTENTION to what’s being set in front of you
38. You can start with nothing .. and out of nothing or no way - a WAY will be provided.
39. HOW LONG??? No rules on time .. the more aligned you are with positive feelings the quicker things happen
40. Size is nothing to the universe (unlimited abundance if that’s what you wish) We make the rules on size and time
41. No rules according to the universe .. you provide the feelings of having it now and the universe will respond
42. Most people offer the majority of their thought in response to what they are observing (bills in the mail, being late, having bad luck…etc..)
43. You have to find a different approach to what is through a different vantage point
44. “All that we are is a result of what we have thought” - Buddha
45. What can you do right now to turn your life around?? Gratitude
46. Gratitude will bring more into our lives immediately
47. What we think about and THINK about is what we bring about
48. What are the things you are grateful for?? Feel the gratitude.. focus on what you have right now that you are grateful for
49. Play the picture in your mind - focus on the end result
50. VISUALIZE!!! Rehearse your future
51. VISUALIZE!!! See it, feel it! This is where action begins
52. Feel the joy .. feel the happiness )
53. An affirmative thought is 100 times more powerful than a negative one
54. “What this power is, I cannot say. All I know is that it exists.” Alexander Graham Bell
55. Our job is not to worry about the “How”. The “How” will show up out of the commitment and belief in the “what”
56. The How's are the domain of the universe. It always knows the quickest, fastest, most harmonious way between you and your dream
57. If you turn it over to the universe, you will be surprised and dazzled by what is delivered .. this is where magic and miracles happen
58. Turn it over to the universe daily.. but it should never be a chore.
59. Feel exhilarated by the whole process .. high, happy, in tune
60. The only difference between people who are really living this way is they have habituated ways of being.
61. They remember to do it all the time
62. Create a Vision Board .. pictures of what you want to attract .. every day look at it and get into the feeling state of already having acquired these wants
63. “Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions.” Albert Einstein
64. Decide what you want .. believe you can have it, believe you deserve it, believe it’s possible for you
65. Close your eyes and visualize having what you already want - and
the feeling of having it already.
66. Focus on being grateful for what you have already .. enjoy it!! Then release into the universe. The universe will manifest it.
67. “Whatever the mind of man can conceive, it can achieve” W. Clement Stone
68. Set a goal so big that if you achieved it, it would blow your mind.
69. When you have an inspired thought, you must trust it and act on it.
70. How can you become more prosperous?? INTEND IT!!
71. ‘Checks are coming in the mail regularly’… or change your bank statement to whatever balance you want in there… and get behind the feeling of having it.
72. Life is meant to be abundant in ALL areas…
73. Go for the sense of inner joy and peace then all outside things appear
74. We are the creators of our universe
75. Relationships: Treat yourself the way you want to be treated by others .. love yourself and you will be loved
76. Healthy respect for yourself
77. For those you work with or interact with regularly .. get a notebook and write down positive aspects of each of those people.
78. Write down the things you like most about them (don't expect change from them). Law of attraction will not put you in the same space together if you frequencies don't match
79. When you realize your potential to feel good, you will ask no one to be different in order for you to feel good.
80. You will free yourself from the cumbersome impossibilities of needing to control the world, your friends, your mate, your children….
81. You are the only one that creates your reality
82. No one else can think or feel for you .. its YOU .. ONLY YOU.
83. Health: thank the universe for your own healing. Laugh, stress free happiness will keep you healthy.
84. Immune system will heal itself
85. Parts of our bodies are replaced every day, every week..etc… Within a few years we have a brand new body
86. See yourself living in a new body. Hopeful = recovery. Happy = happier biochemistry. Stress degrades the body.
87. Remove stress from the body and the body regenerates itself. You can heal yourself
88. Learn to become still .. take your attention away from what you don't want, and place your attention on what you wish to experience
89. When the voice and vision on the inside become more profound and clear than the opinions on the outside, then you have mastered your life
90. You are not here to try to get the world to be just as you want it. You are here to create the world around you that you choose.
91. And allow the world as others choose to see it, exist as well
92. People think that if everyone knows the power of the LOA there won't be enough to go around .. This is a lie that’s been ingrained in us and makes so many greedy.
93. The truth is there is more than enough love, creative ideas, power, joy, happiness to go around.
94. All of this abundance begins to shine through a mind that is aware of it’s own infinite nature. There’s enough for everyone. See it. Believe it. it will show up for you.
95. So let the variety of your reality thrill you as you choose all the things you want.. get behind the good feelings of all your wants.
96. Write your script. When you see things you don't want, don't think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on the don't wants… remove your attention from don't wants... and place them on do wants
97. We are mass energy. Everything is energy. EVERYTHING.
98. Don't define yourself by your body .. it’s the infinite being that’s connected to everything in the universe.
99. One energy field. Our bodies have distracted us from our energy. We are the infinite field of unfolding possibilities. The creative force.
100. Are your thoughts worthy of you? If not - NOW is the time to change them. You can begin right where you are right now. Nothing matters but this moment and what you are focusing your attention on.


Thursday, March 15, 2007

Another Day Lost


Another day lost. I didn't go in to work today, because I was too busy coughing up phlegm. There I stood at the bathroom sink for what seemed like an eternity. I couldn't stop coughing and gagging. NOT a pretty visual.
To top it off, I have a fever blister which means that I need a laxative. I have been afraid to take a laxative, because my bowels have been going from constipation to the runs all in the same day.
It is hard to believe how quickly I went through that pitcher of SF apple drink, which is good, because my coughs are more productive now, and my throat does not hurt as bad, but I am sure I must have scared the neighbors half to death with all the horrible coughing.
The clock keeps ticking and the more time I lose, the more worried I get. Will tomorrow be the same?!
I hope NOT!!!! Makes me feel like Alice in Wonderland!
Go ASK Alice when she is ten feet tall....
 .... Now where did that White Rabbit go?!!!!!!!!