Monday, June 30, 2008

I am LOVED =.)

I have so much to say that I know not where to begin!

First of all, this is the graphic that I submitted in the contest last week... We were not allowed to put our watermark, so no one knew who created what. I am so surprised to have come in 3rd place! I am against such talented artists that the competition is very rough. I feel so honored...

Second... I received the following award by two people on the same day! I am so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life. Thank you, Cindy and Bethe... I will need to resize it to put it in my sidebar. =.)

Third... I am Member of the Week for my graphic group this week!

Wow @ I am feeling the love... I am speechless... I just feel so thankful and so blessed. Color me happy...

Saturday, June 28, 2008

A Queen & Her Knight

Is my journal sick? With the new AOL upgrade it seems as if it took longer to come up...

This is another tag where I used a mask. I think it is so Winivere. lol...

I love this queen and her knight... Her dress is breath-taking. I can only imagine how much time it took to make the dresses of that era... Whatsmore, I love that the artist chose to have a Queen, instead of a King, to perform this honor... Almost makes you think that we are running behind the times; doesn't it?!

The background I chose for this tag is different from the original print. I love the castle. It almost looks like a big cathedral... a big reminder that  even when we only have but a little bit of courage or a little bit of strength, our strength and the strength of God combined will help us to achieve things that we never knew we could do.

The quote by Eleanor Roosevelt is one of her greatest quotes... It takes great courage to look at fear in the face... I wish I had been able to write it all on this tag, but I used the text tool in animation because my text tool in PSP is not working... The text tool in animation is not as versatile as the one in PSP.

The man of my dreams is a man of honor... but that kind of man is very hard to find... but then, that is another entry all by itself... lol

The real print of this Queen and her Knight has a special place in my apartment. It hangs beside a large statue of St. Michael, my little place of prayer and solitude...

I have had a good week with my new graphic group. I made three blinkies, two tags with masks, and I entered a tag in a contest... The work of these ladies is remarkable... I hope my tags will become as beautiful as theirs one day and I hope I will continue to learn more next week...

The telenovela with Mario Cimarro ended last night. It will not be easy to live without him next week. LOL

Friday, June 27, 2008

Enrich My Soul

T.G.I.F... LOL @ I never thought I would be amongest all those people who cannot wait until Friday...

I am here to post my first mask tag... This week I have learned how to make a blinkie and how to use a mask. So happy that I am learning, although I still continue to cheat if I find an easier way to do it. LOL

So here it is Friday and I have a list of "Things To Do" as long as my arm... It's funny how those things never leave the list or you have to do them all over again the next day! Sometimes, I wish I could think like a man and do nothing but go to work, only to have the wifee pamper all over me for the rest of the evening... Must be nice to have a wife... No wonder some women prefer to marry women. LOL @ just another crazy thought...

The problem in my head is that the time has come... again... to make up my mind... again... if I am going to stay in this apartment or not... LOL

Every time the lease is up, I really, really, think about it... I am not happy with this apartment... I am not happy with the service... Nothing works right and the maintenance people are so nosey and never fix anything right... Grrr @ sometimes we put up with things because we have no one to help us move...

If I didn't have furniture and things, it would be so easy to get out of here... but where would I go?

I don't have a job yet to find an apartment close to it... 

As usual, I will give my 30-day notice and see what happens between here and July 31...

I must apologize for not visiting your journals as much as I would like... During the week, I am busy with the job hunting... and trying to make new tags for my journal... Also, my alerts do not work... There are only a couple of journals that allow me to use that service... AOL keeps changing things, but it still is not working for me, not to mention problems with my computer... but I will try to visit you at least once a week... Hang in there and thank you so much for being a friend... Believe it or not, it really helps.

Please do not snag this childhood picture of me. Thank you.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Blinkie - Jiminy Cricket

  

My computer continues to be sick... so I haven't taken the time to make a tag for this entry... This is a blinkie challenge... 

This morning, I woke up before the clock, but then, it was like I was pushed back to bed into a really heavy dream... It was so deep that it knocked me out completely for about six hours...
 
The strange thing is that I don't even remember what the dream was about... Grrrr...
 
I have an application to complete and deliver... God, give me the strength to at least complete that today before 5:00...
 
As I suspected, the telenovela with Mario Cimarro did not end last night... I guess they are going to try to spread it out until Friday... I have no problem with watching him for a couple of more days. lol
 
The wind continues to blow back the pages of the past... It would have been appropriate to receive an apology instead of the malicious lies about me that they continue to spread. I could strike back and write all the gory details, but to all the people who continue to ask me what happened, I just want to put the past behind me and walk away from people I cannot trust.
 
Thank you for caring, and no, I have no problems with you coming in here to snag my tags, even tho' you rarely leave me a comment to let me know what you did! LOL @ snag snag snag without a word...
 
If anyone should ask you, justtell them I am well and doing fine...
 

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Justice

It is always difficult to add this kind of animation into my journal, because it takes a lot of time to load, but it just seemed appropriate to add it today...

Meli says : It's hard to turn the page when the wind keeps flipping the pages back to the past...

Rightfully said, Mel... My response to you was to just close the window, but some people keep trying to suck you back into all that drama... Sometimes, all we can do is put our enemies in God's hands. They think that God is not paying attention, but He is able to hear everything they say and see everything they do. There is enough drama in the world already...

The job hunt continues... No changes there... No more interviews so far... Must presevere...

Even without a job, God has been so good to provide for me so far... I am so grateful that I have held on to the money I need to cover the rent in July... How many people would make the sacrifices it takes to survive being without a job or a husband to take care of them?! I feel so blessed to know that I am able to trust God to continue to take care of all my needs... Surely, He has better plans for me than whatever plans I make for myself...

TRUST... BELIEVE... two of the greatest words in my vocabulary...

And if I play my cards right, maybe God will see to it that my Friend will send me some avocadoes from her avocado tree.... Ah, Friend... did I mention to you that avocadoes are my favorite food in the whole entire world?! LOL

I am loving my new graphic group. The colors and the sends are wonderful and I already knew some of the people. My computer continues to be sick, but yesterday, I learned how to make a blinkie... This was only my first blinkie, so don't get excited. Hopefully, they will get better. LOL...

Please do not snag this one, because it is a picture of me when I was a little girl...

I am a strong woman on the outside, but I am still a little girl on the inside. Handle my heart with care. It is fragile...

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Mario Cimarro

 
      
 
This is the man I have been drooling over for the past few months. His name is Mario Cimarro. I was fortunate to be able to find some pictures to make this tag. There were a few more pictures, but I think this is just enough to show the passion of his kiss...  
 
What makes this look even more spectacular to me is that he gave her this passionate kiss in the rain...
 
I love kissing in the rain... especially if the kiss is so passionate that you can feel it in your knees. lol...  
 
Why don't men kiss like that in real life?
 
The only one who ever kissed me like that was my first love... and yes, we kissed in the rain... We were so much into the kiss that he never noticed that his sweater was soaking wet...
 
I wonder if he kisses his current girlfriend the way he used to kiss me... I have never been kissed like that again... Is it possible to have that kind of kiss with someone else or is it the kind of sensation that you can only get from one person?!  
 
I love Mario Cimarro's large manly body and his large hands... He is so beautiful... I could stare at him all day. lol @ I sound like a school girl... "I've got a crush on you!"
 
I love the way he picks her up as if she is as light as a feather... She is so petite that he always picks her up to kiss her... Men always used to pick me up to kiss me... I used to love that... to be swept off your feet... divine...  
 
Her name is Danna Garcia, and their chemistry is wonderful, but then again... he would make any woman look good. lol...
 
Unfortunately, the telenovela ends tomorrow... It seems too soon for it to end, because there is still a lot going on... I can hardly wait to see what happens today.   I will be sad to see it go...
 
The new telenovelas they will be showing have terrible actors and actresses, so I will probably be taking a good break from watching...
 
Well, except for one called "Without breasts, there is no heaven." LOL @ the title... it is about prostitution and drug dealers...  
 
I am happy to report that I am in a new graphic group... Only one day and I am already wondering what I was doing wasting my time with the other group...   There are many talented, well-known artists in the new group, and the tags that they make have such lovely colors... I cannot believe the difference after only one day... I hope I will be able to learn some new things about PSP.  
 
My computer continues to be sick... I was having a lot  of trouble with the PSP program yesterday... It kept kicking me out... and I was unable to write anything on anything... I hope it will work today...  
 
eXcuse me but I still cannot believe how HOT that Mario Cimarro guy is... LOL @ how could one man be so well made?!# (drooling)   At my age, the men do not look like that... OMG @ what the online dating drags in... I signed up for a temporary trial about a year ago and even though it is expired, they are still sending me pictures of what is probably the oldest and the worst of the entire batch...
 
I am no beauty, but OMGGG... Please don't tell me that is the only hope a girl like me has!  
 
So here it is Tuesday. I have to go back to the employment center today... I dread having to get dressed to go out... I wish the temperatures were not so hot and humid...
 
I wish the only hot sizzle in my day was the unbelievably gorgeous Mario Cimarro. LOL... Well, at least I can look at him for two more days...  
 
I am not being unfaithful, Richard Gere... Honest, I am not... LOL
 

 
 
 

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Turn the "PAGE"

        
 
Ahh, the start of a brand new day...
a day for putting yesterday
behind me...    
and rediscovering the strength within myself  
 that allows me to let go  
and move on...            
 
The latter days of Bettie Page's life
are but a mystery...
She disappeared from the world,  
because she wanted to be remembered
for the way she was...          
 
It is Time to Turn the "Page"   
on Yesterday...       
 
I don't want to disappear 
from the world...
I want my LIFE
to be a MESSAGE  
of
HOPE...       

 
 

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Life is an Adventure

My daughter says that my life is an adventure... something that could easily be made into a Best Seller...

I have never thought of my life as an adventure... Things just happen... so I try to deal with things, no matter how difficult...

Today is another one of those difficult days... I am hurt... and I am not in a happy place...

Yesterday, I made a mistake of entering some of my work into the graphic group journal... I never should have done that, because I received harsh comments about my work today from someone in the group... 

I never expected that... After all, we are not experts... We are only learning...

... so I deleted all of my entries in the group journal...

I don't think anyone will notice that my entries are gone, but I will never enter any of my work in there again...

I do not expect everyone to like my designs... It is enough to be humiliated and treated as stupid in the PSP classes in the graphic group. 

Playing with PSP is a good stress relief for me... I have never been taught how to do it, and I don't claim to know what I am doing... I just play with it and hope for the best...

Excuse me while I take that knife out of my back...

So sorry today's entry couldn't have been more cheerful...

Friday, June 20, 2008

Feelings Of Flowers

Good or Bad Karma?!#

In the news, registered sex offender Fred Topous Jr. won the $57 million Mega Millions jackpot from the June 13, 2008, drawing. That was last week!

Convicted bank robber Timothy Elliott won $1 million from a scratch ticket in November 2007. A Massachusetts judge said Elliott can keep the money, even though buying the ticket violated the terms of his probation.

OMG... HOW CAN THAT BE?!# Here we are scraping pennies at the gas pump and at the grocery store... Is it time to play the lottery and start buying those scratch tickets? I have never won anything in my life. I am as unlucky in games of chance as I am in love... I guess love could also be called a "game of chance." Hummm... there's a thought...

The background challenge I created yesterday and the Janet Jackson mirror image both have the same background except that Janet's wings hide the magnificent view... I wasn't very pleased with either creation... I think my settings might be off... I will try to re-make Janet's image at a later time... not today. lol

The creation in this entry is the result of this week's Tube Challenge. It is not animated, but I think it is enough... very soft... Love the colors... The plumeria flowers almost look like inpatients, my Grandmother's favorite flowers...

I love purples, but I notice myself being pulled towards the color sage... in jewelry and home decor... Sage just looks so calming... Maybe it is because of all the stress that I go through everyday...

I try not to think about stress... I am going through the motions of job hunting... I really, really want to put in my two cents worth to God about whether I like one job possibility over the other, but in the end, I know it will have to be His decision and not mine... This week was a total surprise ~ with three interviews all in one week! I wasn't too nervous... I am just putting them all in God's hands...

I was very shocked to receive some "toilet paper" money as an early birthday present from my "friend" Daniel. (LOL)  That was very unusual to receive money from Daniel, but it came at a good time... What is shocking is that I was only expecting about $5... I probably should have saved the money, but I must admit that, although I tried to be conservative with it, I think I went a little wild with it... I put gas in my car, bought some $4 flowers to go by Grandmother's picture, a bar of chocolate, Angel Soft toilet paper, some cheap mascara, Resume paper, a one-gallon pitcher (my previous pitcher had a hole in it), chocolate ice cream (lol) and a few groceries.

Looking at my list, it doesn't sound extravagant... It's just unusual for me to buy the little luxuries like chocolate, ice cream, fresh flowers, a new pitcher, and soft toilet paper. LOL... Fortunately, I still have enough to cover next month's rent, so I think it was ok to spend the money that I received from Daniel. The problem is that I am feeling a little guilty about it... Stupid guilty feelings. LOL

T.G.I.F.!!! LOL @ I am beginning to love Fridays. I have to go to the employment center today. Wish I could just stay in and sleep. =.)

 This is one of my first siggys. Why is it so small??!!! Must investigate to see if I can get it back to the right size...

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Background Challenge

  
 
Just adding my results
to a background challenge.
I hope this is the right one.
LOL
It has a lot of animation
so it might take time to load...
Will write more later...
 
Interview went well.
 
Bye for now...

Learning to LOVE Myself

 
I got dressed this morning only to get undressed... Just as I was gathering my things to go out the door, there was an unusual sound coming from the living room... It was the phone and it was ringing... LOL
 
I have another interview after 5 p.m. today... Short notice; don'tcha think?!#... So off with the outer clothes so as to be able to tolerate a few more hours in my "sauna" apartment... Perhaps I should invest in an "at-home bikini wardrobe"... ha ha... Scary thought...
 
So anyway... the interviews I had on Tuesday went fine, because I was not nervous... The interview I had after 5 p.m. went into supper time, because the interviewer was running an hour and fifteen minutes behind. Grrr...
 
I have not had a chance to send out my Thank You notes... Hopefully, I will be able to mail them off this evening... if the interview I have after 5 p.m. today doesn't take too long...
 
I know it is stupid, but I am beginning to doubt if I will ever get a job... Lord, I am applying and I am going to the interviews... You know I have put in my two cents about the jobs that I feel are the best for me, but you also know that I have been without work for so long that I am afraid to fail at the next job... I will continue to go through the motions, but I am still waiting on your decisions for my life...
 
Rejection is so hard, my Lord... Please do not allow my lack of self-esteem to cause me to lose out on a great opportunity...
 
Help me to find my place in the world...
Help me to make a difference in the world...
Help me to leave my mark in the world...
 
 
The phone played a trick on me last night... I thought it was Daniel... but it was Joe... He called to find out who I was and if he should throw out my phone number out or not... LOL...
 
I have never been set up before, but a mutual friend from a previous job wanted us to meet... That was over a year ago... After I lost my job, I felt very embarrassed, so I didn't pursue it...
 
I can only imagine him calling her up today to find out details about moi. (giggle)

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Prayer Request

I have an interview this morning & another one at 5:15. That means I have to get dressed twice in my "sauna" apartment. Grrr... Putting on pantyhose is extremely hard for me. Please keep me in your prayers today.

xx,

Win =.)

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Confidence

 

For the past two weeks, I have been trying to re-train myself to wake up at 6:00 a.m., to prepare myself for when I get a job… I wake up on time, but my eyes stay closed and I do not get out of bed until the alarm has stopped playing all that morning music. LOL @ that means I would be late to work… Must keep trying… Perhaps next week will spell victory against the clock...

I took a jar of jam from my kitchen cupboard and a new bar of soap from the bathroom cabinet… no idea whatsoever of where I was going…

I was hoping not to be rejected for showing up unannounced, but the phone number in the newspaper was a fax number. I arrived at the address on my planner and I signed in… putting my jar of jam and the new bar of soap in the appropriate bins…

First on the agenda was a Self-Defense demonstration. Although my partner was much taller than I was, she seemed soft and weak. She was surprised at how strong I am for being such a little person…

I learned a few moves at how to handle different kinds of holds from an attacker. It was so much fun, and I was so grateful that I showed up in comfortable clothes and comfortable shoes.

The second talk was on Woman’s Heath, so I headed straight for the massage table while I listened to the woman talk. (It was my partner from the Self-Defense demonstration!) Oh, my! I had battled against an important person! How grand!

The massage person had magic fingers and magic hands. If I could, I would have stayed on the massage table for the rest of the morning. LOL…

I really do not remember what the third talk was on. LOL @ blame it on the massage… I must have been on Cloud 9…

Somehow I made it over to the manicure table… OMGG! Was I lucky or what? The young girl who gave me the manicure was the instructor! She gave me a fabulous French manicure. Oh, so chic! I keep looking down at my hands in amazement.

I wish my manicure would keep until after my interviews on Tuesday, but I have to wash dishes, so I really, really, doubt it…

After that, people from Sephora showed up with a live make-up demonstration. The color expert took an older woman and gave her a day look, and then, an evening look. The transformation was remarkable.

I will need to practice what I learned on my own face, although I do not have all of the makeup that she used on that woman‘s face… It was awesome to see her just draw all over that woman’s face, and then, just blend! Must put it on my “things to do” list…

I was especially impressed by the brushes. The one I want costs $35. Oh my goodness!!!! I wonder if Sally’s has the same brush at a cheaper price… Will need to pay Sally a visit…

Then, she took a young girl and gave her the “smoky eye” look. Wow… was it really the same girl we saw earlier?!

It is amazing what make-up can do. I wonder what miracles it could do for me!!!! It would have been nice if she had used me as the model… Sigh…

One tip my readers might find helpful is to use foundation that matches the color of your neck instead of the color of your face or your hand or your wrist.

After my exciting morning, I rushed to get home for my PSP class. My AOL is so slow in opening up, but the leader was a little bit late, so I was able to make it just in the nick of time. This is not the tag we made in class today. Will post it at a later time... maybe. LOL

I have been looking for a new church home. I will be going to a different church tomorrow to see what the services are like there.

Survey Time =.)

Sandra twisted my arm. (LOL)

After you're done, repost and erase my answers and replace them with your own.

1. What is your best friends name? Belle


2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now? Black


3. What are you listening to right now? Me typing this


4. What's your favorite number? 8


5. What was the last thing you ate? Sandwich


6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? dreamy violet


7. How is the weather right now? Hot & Humid


8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone? A woman who scheduled my interview next week.


9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? The face


10. Do you have a significant other? No ~ just my bird ~ LOL


11. Favorite TV show? none right now... too many Spanish stations. sighhhhh


12. Siblings? Yes, a younger brother


13. Height? Too short


14. Hair color? Blonde


15. Eye Color? Brown


16. Do you wear contacts? Not in a long time. I like the green best, because my father had green eyes.


17. Favorite Holiday? Halloween


18. Month? whenever the weather is cool. LOL


19. Have you ever cried for no reason? No, I tend to have a reason for when I cry.


20. What was the last movie you watched? don't remember.


21. Favorite Day of the Year? Halloween. I like to dress up.


22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? No, but I like to be asked.


23. Canyou do a headstand (not using the wall)? NO. I don't even know if I can do it with the wall now. I used to be so flexible.


24. Hugs or Kisses? Depends on who is doing the kissing ;.)


25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate


26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?  doesn't matter but would be nice to read their answers


27. Who is most likely to respond? Maybe Bethe


28. Who is least likely to respond? No idea


29. What books are you reading? Haven't started yet but want to get that book by Joel Osteen.


30. Piercings? Ears only. My navel is hard to find. LOL


31. Favorite movies? Somewhere In Time, Bridget Jones (1st one), Overboard, Memoirs of a Geisha, Girl with Pearl Earring, Black Dahlia


32. Favorite football Team? not into watching football really


33. what were u doing before this? Working on a tag.


34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Butter


37. Dogs or cats? Birds. LOL


38. Favorite flower? Gardenia


39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? Who hasn't?


40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex? Yes~ Daniel but he is a pain. LOL


41. Have you ever loved someone? Yes, I have a big heart. DUH!


42. Who would you like to see right now? Bella


43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten? I never went to kindergarten. I was too smart.


44. Have you ever fired a gun? Only a water gun. LOL


45. Do you like to travel by plane? Yes,


46. Right-handed or Left-handed? Right


47. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two


48. Are you missing someone? My children and my grandchildren


49. Do you have a Tattoo? No, but I have thought about it.


50. Anybody on myspace that you'd go on a date with? No.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Love & Chocolate

 
All I really need is LOVE
but a little
CHOCOLATE
now and then doesn't hurt!
~ Lucy Van Pelt
 
LOL @ Lucy is hard to love, but I like this quote. My favorite Peanuts character is Linus. He's the sweetest thing! (smile)
 
I have never felt the TGIF fever before, but with all this job hunting, I am feeling it NOW... I hope that is a good sign!
 
Yesterday, I was playing with Tidbit, blowing bubbles with a bubble wand at her. LOL @ it was so much fun and she loved it, too.
 
Then, I went shopping... in my own closet... I pulled out the black and white skirt-suit that I got from dress for Success, and I started from there... trying to find the biggest clothes in my closet that might fit or stretch to fit... trying to select the pieces with the material that looked the nicest even if it isn't... and trying to find just the right colors...
 
I will have an at-home mini-fashion show this weekend to see if the few pieces I have will work together and to see how many looks I can get from them.
 
The shoes that I got from dress for Success are so comfortable, but they look worn. I will need to polish them up to see if I can get them to look better...
 
The purse comes apart if you are not careful, but it looks nice, so it will do or awhile...
 
Then, I dumped my jewelry on the bed to see if I could find some matching pieces. OMGG @ I have very limited earrings and most of them do not match or there is only one... Also, the necklaces people sell or make are always so short... I want to buy a crimper so I can teach myself to make earrings and rethread the necklaces I have so I can mix the stones the way I want them... More work for me, but it will be worth it... Fortunately, I have enough jewelry pieces to get by...
 
That was a fun shopping trip,
but it was exhausting!
Time for a chocolate break. =.)
 
I can hardly wait for the Fashion Show.
LOL
 
 

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Be Yourself- The Best Thing To Be

 
 
My back went out yesterday... painful... Makes me wonder how some people are able to get disability from it... I probably should have filed for disability years ago, but I chose to keep on working...  
 
I am happy that Obama is on the Democratic ticket... It upsets me that people from Texas are arguing at the state capitol, because they wanted Hillary to win the Democratic seat... Most of the votes that she received from Texas were from the area where I live...  
 
There was no choice in Texas, really... All the Spanish stations only mentioned Hillary & told the public that she was the one to vote for, because she is the immigrant's friend.  
 
Yep, she played a dirty game in Texas... I won't go into more detail, because I do not want to offend, but I am happy that the people's choice is Obama...
 
I am just fearful for his life, because there are still many prejudiced people in America...  
 
 I am so tired of Bushes and Clintons in the White House for so many years. It is time for a change... But why is the country pressuring Obama to put Hillary on his ticket for Vice President?
 
Hello... we do not want a yes man..
 
I would love a woman for President someday but not Hillary...  
 
Just say no to Hillary, Obama. LOL  
 
Daniel and I are still fighting over politics. He is voting for McCain just because he is tired of the Democratic mess. That's just stupid.  
 
LOL @ stupid is as stupid does...  
 
I am surprised to report that I have two interviews scheduled on the same day next week and one of the interviews is after 5 p.m... I wish they could arrange a better time... but as always, I am at someone else's mercy...  
 
Be grateful, Win... Be grateful! LOL  

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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

More Moore

 
On the telenovela, a man leaves his wife after 25 years of marriage, because he thinks he is in love with a woman who is in her 30's... The man's wife is now 50 years old & has no idea how she is going to survive financially, because she has never worked before... The man marries the woman of 30... 
 
A young man of 32 falls in love with the woman the man left behind & encourages her to start her own business. The ex is in disbelief and is totally jealous.
 
The older man (ex) has a stroke & becomes paralyzed from his left arm & left leg... It is when he is in the hospital that he decides to leave his young wife... The woman of 50 takes him into her home to have him cared for by a provider at the request of her kids.
 
Now the man wants the young man of 32 to step aside & he has the nerve to ask the woman if she wants to be his wife again...
 
How sick is that?! My ex came crawling back the same way. How stupid is that?! How can men think that they can just show up and we can take them back just like that?!# How can they treat us as if they never did anything wrong?... Grrrr...
 
I hope she stays with the young guy. LOL
 
Even the guy that I was totally head-over-heels in love with came back after three years, but you know what... after he came back, it was as if I was totally cured, because I just couldn't love him anymore...
 
 
I have been playing phone tag for an interview appointment since Friday. I finally got it scheduled for next week. =.)
 
I would prefer the job I interviewed for last Friday, but at least, some of my applications are moving along...
 
On the local scene, some high school seniors deflated the tires of some 60+ school buses... They were not allowed to attend the graduation ceremony an they did not receive their high school diplomas...

Friday, June 6, 2008

Barbie Wants To Be Me

Where do I begin?! I was so nervous, because I didn’t know if it would happen. Will it happen? I prayed all the way there. Even if they say no, I told God, at least let me walk out of there with their expertise…

I was nervous as I filled out the paperwork. Would she say yes? Finally, the paperwork was complete… and then, she stood up and walked me to another room…

Monica pulled out some possibilities and had me try them on. I tried on three suits, but the one I chose was the first set that I tried on. It is a black and white patterned jacket and skirt. The pattern is so small that it makes the pattern look like a medium gray from far away. I tried it on with a black wool sleeveless tunic tank that was so long that I had to fold it under for it to measure at the hip. The skirt was not a good fit and a bit shorter for my taste but it was below the knee and it made the other pieces look balanced. Because I live in a Tropical climate, I wish there was no lining in the suit and I wish the tank top was in a cooler material, but I am happy with my choice.

Monica chose some black pointy Donna Lawrence sling-backs with a medium heel to go with the suit. I reached for a black Gucci shoulder bag that had a matching Gucci wallet inside of it. Monica seemed embarrassed that I chose the bag that she had donated.

All of these pieces were donated from other people’s closets. I asked Monica what jewelry I should wear with the suit and how I should wear my hair… She had me follow her to the back…

There were some hair products on display… some shampoo and conditioner for curly hair, a hair cream for blondes, and a hair spray made just for blondes. These were products that she recommended for me. Then she pulled out three nail products and asked me which one I liked best. After listening to her describe the products, I told her that I liked the pumice stone. Then, she pulled out a pearl necklace from the glass case. She said pearls are classic, and they would look good with my suit. Then, she put the products back and told me they were only for display.

When we were finished, we started to walk out the door, and then she said that we forgot to look at the new clothes that were donated for my town. The clothes she chose for me were from the used clothing section, but after being there all morning, I told her that what we had selected was fine.

So then, we went into the other room. Monica took inventory as she put each item into a cute little shopping bag. I didn’t know I was going to get the products and the pearl necklace and earrings, too. Then, she got up, because she had forgotten that they also had pantyhose. She chose a nude color for me and added them to the bag.

So that was my little Barbie make-over!

I got a black & white patterned suit, a black wool tank top, a black pair of sling-back shoes, a black Gucci shoulder bag with matching wallet, shampoo, conditioner, hair cream, hair spray, a pumice stone, and a pearl necklace with earrings.

All of these items free from Dress for Success.

All in all, I put complete trust into this woman’s taste… and she worked with my taste, too. It made me feel like a little doll to have someone else dress me. I felt so special and so pampered.

This was a wonderful experience, and I got a few dressing tips on how to choose clothes for the chunky little body that I have now. LOL

When I got home, I hemmed the sleeves on the jacket, tried the hair products, and the pumice stone, and filled the purse with my stuff so that I would be ready for my interview this morning.

The interview was scary. A panel is always scary. There were many questions and the testing was done in front of everybody. I was so nervous. I hate being nervous because sometimes you do not know what you are saying when you are nervous. LOL… Do I sound nervous to you?!!! I hope I did okay.

When I was walking out, I noticed that I had forgotten my purse. It was a good thing, too, because if I had left earlier, I never would have run into an old friend that I have not seen in four years. She was so happy to see me. It will be nice to have a friend there if they choose me to work for them.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

While You Were Sleeping

     
A week ago, as I lay sleeping,
I heard two angels speaking…
Ha suvido tanto peso. Nunca estaba asi.
Si, pero tiene que comer. Tenemos que ayudarla.
It was my grandparents.
It was so real that it woke me up.
 
(Translation)
Grandfather: She has gained so much weight. She was never like that.
Grandmother: Yes, but she has to eat. We have to help her.
 
When I got up,
I decided to take my Grandmother’s picture
and put in the kitchen.
In the picture, she is in her own kitchen,  and she is busy cleaning a spoon with a dishcloth.
Putting the picture in my kitchen
makes me happy.
Whenever I pass by the picture,
I look at her,
and it makes me smile.
Grandmother knows that I have gained weight,
but she also knows that I need to eat.
It felt like a sign
that God will continue to take care of me.
I have always been closer to my Grandfather,
because I spent a lot of time
with Grandfather when I was a child.
Grandmother’s picture was
in the Living Room for years,
but as strange as it sounds,
I feel that putting Grandmother’s picture
in my Kitchen
has brought me closer to her…
I look at her,
and I think about
putting a flower there for her,
but I could never put
a plastic or a silk flower there.
She deserves a fresh flower,
even if it is only one,
because she loved flowers.
I hope I will always have
enough money to buy her fresh flowers.
Ever since I moved the picture,
my eating has been better.
One morning,
I even woke up feeling slimmer.
Unfortunately,
as soon as I put on my pants,
I was brought back to reality. LOL…
What is also remarkable
is that the button that flew
from my pants some time ago
finally appeared,
almost like magic.
I like to think that
Grandmother found the button
for me.
 
My Horoscope for Sunday, Jun 1st, 2008 
 
Don't be so surprised if your friends
come through for you
in a way you don't expect.
It might bother you at first
that they can recognize
your vulnerable spot,
but your negative reaction changes
when you accept
that they are on your side.
Look at this as a chance
to get closer
to someone you love.