Saturday, January 31, 2004


Got sidetracked today because I had to go pick up mom at the bus station early this morning. I didnt take my shake before I left because I didnt want to be late picking her up. She wanted to go to McDonald's for breakfast, so I split a breakfast with her. Not too healthy a selection at McDonald's, ya know, but splitting it cut the calories in half.

I really didnt want to buy any clothes, because I want to wait until I lose some more weight, but my pants are fitting pretty baggy. Since most of my clothes are for work, I decided to buy a pair of jeans instead. Surprised to see that I have gone from a size 14 to a size 10. I fit into a relaxed 8 comfortably but I didnt like the way the cut made my vagina smile or frown...couldnt tell because of the cut! Are they crazy or something? Pants should look smooth with no vagina lines! The 10 is more fitted and looked more flattering, so I bought the size 10 instead. Will try to alter my black work pants so I can wear them a little longer before I buy new ones. Still puzzled @ how at 157 lbs I am fitting into a size 10...

I didnt eat at noon, because I went to see Blanca and had my hair trimmed, dyed and highlighted. That took several hours. She only charged me $60.00! Awesome!

Diet all out of whack today. Will try to do better tomorrow.

Friday, January 30, 2004

Weight 157.0

Lost 2 lbs with yesterday's fast of three shakes. Morning and evening shake were with only one tablespoon of Herbalife shakemix and 2 ice cubes. Noon's shake was with 2 tablespoons Herbalife shakemix, banana, ice, and cinnamon. Was expecting to feel hungry, but I dont even feel hungry this morning. Dont know if I have felt hungry because of the lowered intake on this plan or if it is because I have problems with my thyroid. Cant believe how fast I am losing weight with such a slow metabolism. Could it be that Herbalife is getting me back to normal? If I had done the BodyFlex exercises my waist would be so much smallher by now. Have to make the time during the next few days. Fasting yesterday helped me to lose 2 lbs, but today I will go back to my noon meal.

When I was walking yesterday, I couldnt help but thank God for my amazing progress. If you read to the beginning of my diary, you will see the struggles I have had to overcome with so many health problems after my fall in January of last year. Now I am able to walk 3 miles and my body is much stronger and I can twist with very little pain.

Was reading Mary's diary and how she says that she cant kid herself into thinking that she can lose 30lbs in one month. To be honest, I never thought it possible for me, either, but looks like I might make it to 30 lbs by the end of four weeks of dieting which will be around Valentine's day. Wouldnt that be awesome?! So far I have lost 13 lbs in 15 days. It is so hard for me to lose weight. I still cant believe it.

Thursday, January 29, 2004

Stuck @ 159.0

Today, people at work noticed that I am losing weight. Looks like I have been stuck @ 159 lbs for a few days. Odd... does that mean my body has adjusted to the calories I am consuming? Today I am trying to only consume shakes to see if that will help.For lunch, added a banana, ice, and cinnamon to my shake. Yummm...Fasting is good for the soul and also for the waistline. =.) 

My friend Ida had some kind of palsy happen to her face. O so sad. One side of her face doesnt cooperate with the other side of her face. Will say a prayer for her to get better soon.

Havent been able to see him for some time now. Seems something always happens. Sighhh... This weekend, my mom showed up. Today we were supposed to meet for lunch but my boss called a meeting right before the lunch hour and I wasnt able to make it. Last night his son was giving him a hard time because he didnt want to do his homework. Tonight his family is coming in from out of town.

I must admit, I am still self-conscious about my body. It would be nice for him to see me a few pounds lighter and I do so much want to wear something other than black on St Valentine's Day.

Dont give up! Walked 3 miles.

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Weight 159.0

Surprised that some of my old clothes fit and some of my clothes are way too big. The jeans I had been trying to get into are now too big and they dont look anywhere as good as I once thought they did. Even though I am still considered obese, my body appears to be reshaping itself at my present weight.

In journal surfing, met a new friend named Mary who is also trying to lose weight. Have added her to my list. Mary is also a Joyce Meyer fan.

Joyce Meyer is a survivor of a sexually abusive father and has found triumpth over many obstacles including incest, losing weight, changing her life around, and finding the love of her life. She is now a minister and speaks all over the world spreading her message that there is Life In The Word. I get a 10-12 minute glimpse of Meyer's preaching every morning before I head out to work. Meyer is one of the many women that I admire who has triumpth over adversity. =.)

Sunday, January 25, 2004

10 lbs lost in 10 days

Weighed in @ 159.5 this morning. That is 10.5 lbs lighter in 10 days. Hope I can keep this up. Will be in training all day tomorrow and will eat at the Embassy Suites. Hope they have something healthy. Dont want to ruin my diet.

On Feb 2, the church will be having a celebration for the presentation of the Lord. The priest asked us to put in our petitions. I think mine was the first one there. =.)

Was surprised that mom called before she came over. Had to cancel my date. He asked why I hadnt called him. I told him, "Well, you're the man." He said, "OK, then, I'll call you tomorrow." LOL... I thought that was cute.  

Saturday, January 24, 2004

Weight 162.0

Weight: 162 lbs... Eight pounds lighter in nine days. Wow! On average losing a little less than a pound daily. Only 17 more lbs to go from "obese" to "overweight." Sighhh...18 days maybe? Valentine's Day? Dont give up!

My blender is a joke and I wanted a more advanced scale. Went to Target last night to check out the blenders and scales. Michael Graves scale was on sale. It is digital, can easily be read without eyeglasses, and is accurate to 0.5lb compared to the other more expensive brands @ 1 lb accuracy. My new blender has a glass jar, which is better for crushing ice because plastic will shatter, and it has an ice crushing button and I found it at a reasonable price compared to the other brands. Needless to say, my shakes are now thicker and frothier and look like 16oz instead of 8oz. Good shopper! 

Love black, but oh so anxious to add color to my wardrobe. Found some great leopard material that has a little stretch to it. Undecided what to make out of it, though. A skirt would be more practical, but a low back dress...!

Continued problems at work because of jealousy. Mustnt let go of this power. I am on a roll towards reaching my goal...


Wednesday, January 21, 2004

What to Eat/ What NOT to eat

YES: chicken, turkey, fish, tuna, shrimp, egg whites, coffee (no milk), tea, squash, lettuce, broccoli, cucumbers, eggplant, pinto beans, jicama, green beans, pico de gallo, green peppers, onions, mushrooms, tomato, zucchini, potato, rice, sweet potato, lemon, berries, grapefruit, cantaloupe, banana, apple, peach, pear, fresh pineapple, white wine (for cooking), balsamic vinegar.

NO: beef, carrots, celery, fruit juices. oils/butter, salt/sodium, cherries, oranges, watermelon, breads, pasta, canned fruits, olives, pickles, cheese, sauces, chips, tortillas, catsup, steak sauce, egg yolk, franks, organ meats, etc.

Monday, January 19, 2004

Plan B

Wow...glad aol is working again... Luckily, I kept track of progress on my calendar. Here is the scoop in brief...

01/01/04: Current weight @ 183 lbs. Ughhh...Another year to make same resolution. Have to lose this weight.

01/03/04: I have had an incubus since I was a little girl. An incubus is a spirit that comes to you in the night and has sex with you. The experience sucks away your energy and literally leaves you drained. Looking for something to wear on Halloween, I recently came across a shop keeper named Karl. I overheard him in conversation with a customer the first time I stepped into his shop. I thought about what he told the customer and decided to return to discuss my incubus problem with him. After all, he might know what to do about it! Well, he immediately prepared a candle, a special mix of incense, and a banishing spell. Following his instruction, I lit the candle and incense at 10 pm and recited the banishing spell 3x.

01/04/04: I had a dream that someone is coming. I must prepare...

01/06/04:  Three Kings Day. I sat around at home, waiting to see if the three Kings were going to bring me something this year, but by evening, I decided to respond to my dream. I looked through my closet and noticed that I have nothing to wear if that man should appear in my life. I figured I would start by buying myself a new bra and panty, but I was also looking for a stand for my TV.

While I was looking at the furniture, I met gorgeous man who was also looking at the furniture. He asked me for my phone number, but I took his instead. It is hard for me to believe that he chose me over the pretty skinny young girls. Still pinching self. Daily phone calls became habit. First kiss was on 01/14/04. I'm walking on air.

01/15/04: Plan B. Started Herbalife program. Shake in morning. Shake in evening. Lunch: Chicken breast, veggies, salad, iced tea with lemon. Current weight 170 lbs.

He got my home phone from his Caller ID. Now he's calling me!

Thursday, January 1, 2004

II: 183 LBS


Chapter I: Starting weight @ 190 lbs. Progress lasted only from 09/27/2003 to 10/13/2003.  I lost 9.75 inches during that time, four inches were from my waist. I dont know how much weight I lost before November or December. I should have kept better track but I didnt have a scale. I gained weight in November and December.

Chapter II.: Starting weight @ 183 lbs. Couldnt fit in my black dress on New Year's eve. I dont know how I put it on. It was a big struggle for at least a half hour of huffing and puffing, but I couldnt zip it up, and taking it off was just as hard. Sighhh... I have to get into that dress this year. I am more determined to lose this weight than I was in Chapter One. God please help me to accomplish this goal for myself. I am so frustrated by physical therapy, injections, and continued back pain. Still not able to stand more than 10 minutes. I am lucky that the clients understand when I explain to them why I have to sit down when I make presentations.