Back Problems

I have been having problems with my back since Monday. I dont know if this is what happens to other people when they say that their backs went out, but my tailbone fell really bad yesterday. I am not able to lift my butt back into position.. It's as if my butt fell and my stomach went up. Does that paint the picture? It was so hard to climb up the stairs into my apartment yesterday. When I go through periods like this, I feel sad that I dont have a partner in life or at least a well-made tall boy scout to lean on. Sighh... Other times, I am ok with being single. =.) But I do worry that my health will not allow me to work and if I dont work, how will I pay my bills? How will I bake my birthday cake and buy myself a birthday present?! =.) I missed work on Monday. Yesterday, I went in to work, but it was really hard. I had the secretary send the clients to my office, but the pain was so bad that I couldnt stand up, and the clock seemed to tick away the minutes in what seemed to be like an eternity.

I called Fortino yesterday to ask about the McKenzie exercises he taught me. He recommended two, so I struggled to do them last night, hoping to see a difference this morning, but there is still much pain. I dont have very much sick leave time or annual leave time at work. That is scary, because I remember what it was like to have to take leave without pay.

I dont think there is much that my new doctor can do, because he is not a specialist. Only thing I could see is that he might refer me to my pain doctor who might refer me back to Fortino. It would take a lot of time to go through all those people to get the help I need. Sighh...

Lord, I am not worthy to receive you. Say but the word and I will be healed.