A Leaf Falls- E.E.Cummings

I love Autumn...

but alas, the only

"changing of the leaves" Autumn I see

is in picture books

or on my tags!

I can hardly wait

for the weather to get crisp.

 

I am so excited

to be on the same page as Fly Lady this week!

Well, in the same Zone, anyway...

This week, we are in the Bedroom...

my catch-all! Yikes! LOL...

The apartments I lived in before

had lots of storage space...

which is important,

especially because

I don't have bedroom furniture

to put my things in...

I wish it was the same in this apartment...

but it's not...

I have decided to move my bed to the

commanding side of the room.

That means that my headboard

will be in the South...

& I will be facing North.

I wonder if that is bad Feng Shui...

Mother never liked the headboard on the South.

She always sleeps with her head at the North.

I like my headboard on the West

because I like to wake up

towards the Sun

which comes up in the East...

The good thing about

moving my headboard to the South

is that it will be against a wall

which is good Feng Shui

& there will be more room

on the North wall

where I would like to place

a chair

& turn it into a

little "comfort" corner

for reading, meditating

& listening to music...

When I was at Wal-Mart,

I saw a 3-drawer chest of drawers

for $50.00.

It is in a box that is small enough

to fit into my car (very important),

Bringing it up the stairs

will be tricky

because the box is heavy,

so I would have to open the box

& separate the pieces

to bring it up the stairs.

The box says it is easy to assemble.

The drawers are not fancy

but it would be nice to have a place

to store my things...

Oh, yes!

It is on my Wish list...

xx

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Happy Bunny

 

I don't usually run errands on Monday

but I had to pay the light bill

before they turn my lights off

and I had to get some toilet paper and light bulbs...

When I was standing in line to pay my bill,

a woman dropped a penny on the floor.

Those of you who know me

know that a penny is very precious to me...

Normally, I would have told her

that she dropped a penny on the floor

and she would have picked it up herself

or let it go...

but this time,

I sacrificed bending down

to pick it up for her,

which you may know is a hard thing

for me to do

because of my back problems...

... but ah! @ my little random act of kindness!!!

When I was at Wal-Mart,

it was as if I was in a totally unknown store.

because they didn't just move one department around...

They moved the entire floor around!

Grr @ trying to find things...

especially because they weren't finished

and the signs were in the wrong places!!!

A man came up to me

to ask me where he could find a pen

that has all of the colors in one.

I don't work at Wal-Mart,

but I saw the cards

so we went to look for the pen.

I found him the very last pen they had!!!

LOL @ he said he never would have found it

and that the people from Wal-Mart

were not very helpful!

He said that women are like pens~

Some only write in one color,

but I am the kind of woman who

has all the colors!

LOL @ that was cute.

Then, a woman approached me

to ask me where the toilets were

so I gave her directions to get there.

OMG @ do all people think

I work at Wal-Mart? LOL

So the man was surprised

that the woman had asked me

where the toilets were,

even though I don't work there.

He said I have the kind of personality

that just naturally attracts people...

men and women...

and makes them feel comfortable.

What a nice compliment!

So I made three

random acts of kindness 

in one day! Yay!

I want to always be a blessing

wherever I go....

xx

 

P. S...

LOL @ people leaving comments

that I shoul go work for Wal-Mart.

You faile to rea

about my back problems supra...

not to mention my legs & my hip...

I have fallen four times since I have been in the Valley.

There is no way I can

physically work at Wal-Mart

but

thank you for your enthusiasm!

 

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Beauty Sleep

 

As I lay there sleeping,

she leaned in closer... 

I could feel her watching over me.

Her gaze was so intense

that it woke me up...

How did she get here?

How did she find me?!

Because of where my apartment

is located,

it is a total impossibility...

but there she was!

She was looking for me!

The moment I saw her,

I couldn't go back to sleep...

It seemed only minutes,

but we visited for hours...

There she was... smiling at me...

I could not believe that she came to me...

A feeling of complete surprise

filled my entire being with happiness and peace

just to see her there...

knowing that she had made a special trip

just to check in on me to see how I am doing...

It was as if she was saying,

How have you been?

Why haven't you come out to see me?

I have missed you...

Oh, I have missed you, too, my friend...

The alarm went off

but she did not leave.

The light of day

came through my window...

The people of the world were rushing

to be on their way...

but she was still there...

She didn't go away...

She continued to stay...

It was 7:00 and she was still there...

It was 7:30 and she was still there...

Oh, what a beautiful visit we had

until she finally went to sleep...

Thank you for visiting me,

my friend.

I promise I will visit you soon...

Mother Moon.

 

~Winivere

 

This happened Thursday morning.

I just had to write about it!

xx

Tags: !winivere-BeautySleep, Marilyn Monroe, tag offers, moon

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Hello, Bridget!

 

 

LOL @

expressing a little Halloween Spirit.

This tag was a headache to make!

I tried to animate it,

but the animation made it really distorted!

grrrrrrrrr...

I am making two entries today

so don't forget to check out

my other entry for a tag offer.

 

I am upset that my phone

has not made a sound all week,

but on Saturday, I got three phone calls!

Is that what I pay my phone bill for?! LOL

 

The first phone call was from my aunt.

(the one everyone says I look like)

Actually, I think she is my only living aunt now.

She says she was

diagnosed with breast cancer in June.

Fortunately, they caught it in time

& didn't have to remove her breast.

She says she has two more treatments to go

& then, she will be on a pill

for five years...

I have not heard from my aunt

since I lived at my house

in Corpus Christi...

OMG @ that was almost

20 years ago...

I wonder how she got my number.

Wish I could hug her

but she lives in Michigan.

 

 

The second phone call was from

the birthday girl.

My daughter turned 30 on Saturday.

My grandson turned 3 on Thursday

so she threw him

a birthday party at the park.

When I spoke to her on the phone,

Guy told her that he wanted

to talk to Nana.

I was in shock at how clear

his words are!

He told me all about his party.

He sounded so excited & so happy!

He said he ate cake,

 that he rode the train,

& that he got a lot of little box cars.

OMG @ we actually held a conversation!

Oh @ how they grow up so fast...

Wish I could have been there

but we were unable to go.

Sighhh...

 

The last call came after 10 p.m.

so I thought it was Daniel but

it was from my prodigal daughter. <<LOL

She recently moved to Austin

and they moved right across the street

from where her husband works

so he can just walk across the street

to get to work!

Wow! Awesome!

 

xx

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The Mask

This tag takes me back to an old entry that won some recognition by AOL... I am disappointed that this year my journal was not nominated for anything at all... Creating tags has helped me to deal with the stress of being without a job for over a year, but I really should focus more on my writing, because I would really like to write and illustrate a book someday.... This is the 2007 entry...

http://journals.aol.com/winivere2002/TheGlassBox/entries/2007/04/28/behind-the-smile/1466

She was a poet on a street corner, trying to recite to a crowd pulling at her clothes. ~Arthur Miller/ playwright & ex-husband of Marilyn Monroe

Sweet Norma Jeane, always smiling, always hiding her sadness behind the mask of Marilyn Monroe...

It seems impossible that such a beautiful woman could be so unhappy in her private life. It doesn't seem possible that the image the world had of her never allowed the public to see the intelligent woman that she was... the woman who loved to read and write poems.

Marilyn's career took off so quickly that she never took the time to work on her problems until the latter years of her life. Perhaps if she had started earlier, she would have had more of a chance, and she would have been stronger for it. Many people think she committed suicide, but I think she was murdered, because she knew too much.

When I was a child, I wanted to be an artist, but the world took me in the opposite direction... I remember working in an office during the day, but at night, I was a volunteer for an organization called "Crisis Intervention."

Counseling came very natural to me, and I was very good at it. Many people think that counseling is about giving advice, but if you are giving someone advice, you are not counseling. You are giving advice, and you cannot do that in counseling. It became very clear to me that I had found my life's calling, but it was also the beginning of my journey of self-discovery, a kind of self-therapy and knowledge that helped me to work through so much anger and pain from my childhood of abuse, sexual abuse, and abandonment. 

I have been very fortunate to have lived my life alone, because life has taught me many hard and difficult lessons that I probably never would have learned otherwise. 

Like Marilyn, I pour myself into my work to compensate for the love that I have never had from my mother or from a man. I have had many jobs since those days at "Crisis Intervention." I thank my grandfather for teaching me the power of work, for it is my work that sustains me, no matter how difficult or stressful. I thank God for my work and for the many people who have come into my life with a cry for help for their problems. Helping others has always helped me to take my worries off of myself.

But living in the Valley has been like rolling off a cliff. Yes, I feel that I am making a difference where God has planted me, but my heart cries to return to Corpus Christi where I can be closer to my children and far away from the criticism of a mother who will never love me or accept me... and my body cries to be healthy and fit. 

Being beautiful can be just as lonely and just as painful as being ugly and fat. ~ Winivere

So sorry if this entry is sad. I hope it's sadness doesn't take away from the beauty of the tag... Remember that the entry was written in April of last year... My relationship with Mother is better now & she has finally said that she loves me!

Tags: !winivere-TheMask, Marilyn Monroe, beauty

LOVE quote by Lao Tze

 

I love quotes by Lao Tze!!!

Did you know that he wrote the following quote?!

 

Give a man a fish,

you'll feed him for a day.

Teach a man to fish,

you'll feed him for a lifetime.

 

I think the reason why

I am still without a job

is because of Mother.

Mother and I have never been close.

She has always thought that

because I live in an apartment

I live a life of luxury

and have everything I need.

I think she is finally beginning to see

that my living as a tenant

keeps me at the mercy of the landlord. 

My being without a job for so long

has opened her eyes about me

and it has brought us

closer...

She has even started

to tell me:

I love you!

Wow!

and it only took 54 years!

xx

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Miss September

 

Me & my fantasies!

LOL @ check out the straight hair

& my new body.

ROFL...

I love you,

Richard Gere!

xx

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