My Rebellious Spirit

  Dear Diary:

Excited to finally get this tag into my journal, although I had to copy it from another entry. What's the trick?! =.)    

Feeling sad that I have to work 48 hours this week. They are getting away with it by changing the timesheets to show Saturday as the start of a new week, but there is no break. I am working six days in a row. Sighhhhhhh....

A.C.S. got the contract this year. I will have to reapply for the job I'm already working at to see if I remain at my job after September 30, 2005, and we will have to go on probation AGAIN. It is so hard working contract to contract.

After all the finger licking of this icing for my cake decorating class, looks like I have regained the three pounds that I lost. LOL... It was probably water. BUT... in measuring, I discovered that my waist had expanded up to 38 inches. How did I get there?! Oh, my God! No wonder I felt so bloated and my skirt fit so tight.

The bodyshaping with weights appears to be working, however, because even though I regained the three pounds, my waistline has gone down three inches. It's funny to lose and gain three pounds but to lose three inches in one week. My waistline is :::waving:::, "Here I am. Dont give up!"

Had a dinner date on Tuesday which pretty much blew the diet for the rest of the week... Oh, my rebellious spirit! Why do men think that just because they are interested in you that you are automatically interested in them?! You can always tell if a man is considering you because they will stare really hard as if they are analyzing if you are good enough to have a permanent place on their arm, if you are good enough to have a temporary place on their arm, or if you are only good enough for a few moments of their excitement. I hate that.

My dinner date left me kind of disgusted. Why is it that men who like you think that you are going to give in to sex just because they like you? My rebellious spirit makes me overeat, because I dont want to be attracted to them. That's not good for my diet.

Last year, I lost 50 lbs and this man was inspired by my loss. I dont know how much weighthe has lost, but he has it in his mind that if he loses weight, I am going to be his "girlfriend." I agreed to the dinner date because we are friends, but I am not interested in him as a lover.

Taking it one day at a time may be ok for some, but for me, that is too long. Moment to moment is hard enough for me!

Win =.)